Im Backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

Well I don't know if I will write more often or not, but I,ll try.I never have been much of a journal keeper, It takes me so long to write it vs how long I think it. { I think much faster} This week of not working was a bummer. I get worn out when I work but I don,t do hardly anything when I am home for awhile. I am still trying to put away all of the stuff I got for Christmas last Year. I bought us a CD a DVD player but it is still sitting in the box. My VTs husband came to help me set it up and it needed a coaxil, he supposedaly got one for me but I have yet to have him install it. He is home when I am not and vice versa. She keeps telling me they will come over sometime and set it up. I can call them anytime I am home, but I don't get home until 9:30 P.M. which is not a time they would want to come over at.
At least for me it would not be!.I went to Ottos for Thanksgiving. The food was good but the company wasn't too good. They had two of their children there with there mulitude of children. The one family sat and watched video tapes of peoples weddings. Their Mother does them as a business. All the children tere still live at home, but one so they brought them to show her. BORRING! The music she had used as background music was awful. It was rock music for crying out loud. They kept playing it over and over again. Enough already. Every time I tried to enter a conversation they changed the subject. Jerry and Anna were there also. so I tried starting a conversation with Jerry. That was a mistake. He apparently wasn't in the mood in fact he was down right cranky. I picked up my keys and went out to the car. Where was DH you ask. setting with his face in a book reading, of course. Anyway I eventually got some pie and then we went home. I felt like a fish out of water. I really was longing for some people that were normal ie Sorensons. People that didn't put on airs or shut people out. People who are regular down to earth people who don't have to be better than others and play stupid videos over and over again. We talk to each other.I was lonesome for home. I haven't heard from lil Bro about Hol I hope she is doing better. We are supposed to get a nasty snowstorm tonight and tomarrow(Tues) anticapating driving in that slop always gives me the willies. I am scared to drive all winter. I HATE IT! At least I don't have to be at work until noon. But that means I have to drive home at 9:00 P. M. instead! Yikes!

It has been two weeks

Well. it has been 2 weeks since I started at the Morris center. It has been a mixed bag. I have less confidence now than when I started. I had a lot of confidence whan I started. but I am slowly loosing it. I felt really in charge at first. Just came in and did my job like I had done it at Cannon center. I felt on top of the world. Then all of the ways I hade been trained to do things seemed to be wrong. They prepared almost all of the dishes differently than Cannon did. They actually followed the recipies. ( I approved of that) but they are really short of help and the help they have only comes in when the mood hits them. Today is only my second day off in 14 days. I am probably tierd. Anyway I feel just a little less certain about ny abilities than I used to (at the Cannon Center) It is a whole lot quieter here. but it also more laid back then I like. I try hard but I seen tp fall short, at least in my eyes. This is an ongoing problem with me however. I never quite measure up to my expactations of myself.